Missing it

Did I miss it?!

I came as fast as I could but I just got held up.
I just got so busy
....got successful,
....distracted.

Damn.
I think I missed it. I'm supposed to be there already aren't I?
Is it 20:10? 29??
How did I miss all that?

Are the weddings over?
Are we on to babies now? Did I miss it?
I've got so much unopened mail here, I guess I must have missed it.

Deadlines....I make, meet so many of them every week, how could I miss that one?
I always take on too much...you never do more with less, you do less
and something suffers.

I think I missed it.

Hold on a moment....onto a moment.
Did I miss my moment?

wait, is everyone else happy now? Did I miss it?
I'm always late,
10 minutes,
10 years,
I just never can get the timing right.

Did I miss it?
only now I'm really Missing it.
I'm so cold all the time; is it cold?


Is he gone? Did I miss him?
missing - breathe.
him - full.
stop.

Did anyone else miss it too?
The 20:10?



Well, I'm pretty sure I'm still Missing it; but I'm still here!
And missing some things, meant seeing and breathing so much.
So how could anyone feel sad about that?

I close my eyes now and see fields, golden in the afternoon light with a steel and purple mountain smoothly dropped in behind; big, black skinned, pink tongued cows breathe steamily and take their time walking across my view, keeping their own cool, mafia pace. I hear men talking and smell chai, smoke and cotton.

I breathe in. And smile at a memory.